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Feb. 26th, 2003 10:48 amYeah, yeah, I need to write up con notes, but I can't seem to get my brain focused. I'm attributing a lot of my edginess and crankiness to job issues, which are continuing to cause me a good deal of stress; but I think another factor could be the 44-hours-now-and-counting without a cigarette.
It'd odd; edginess/crankiness notwithstanding, this is going much more easily than I'd anticipated. I'm not having any of the typical physical withdrawal symptoms, and I don't really crave cigarettes as such--I don't miss the smoke. I miss the smoking, the activity, the ritual, the break. I keep having this vague feeling like something's missing, as I move through the day, some reward I ought to be getting.
But that's it, really. I am completely sold on Zyban/Wellbutrin as the way to go about quitting; it seems to completely short-circuit the craving, and the compulsivity of the behavior pattern. When I feel itchy about wanting to go smoke, I stop and think, "Do I really want a cigarette?" -- and I realize I don't, not really, not at all. This is different from any of my attempts to quit in the past by dint of sheer laborious muscle-straining willpower; this feels effortless.
So I think this round of quitting is going to stick, which is a great relief, and my blood pressure has already started to edge down. Next step is getting back to the gym on a regular basis, which sounds much more appealing now that my lungs are starting to unclog.
It'd odd; edginess/crankiness notwithstanding, this is going much more easily than I'd anticipated. I'm not having any of the typical physical withdrawal symptoms, and I don't really crave cigarettes as such--I don't miss the smoke. I miss the smoking, the activity, the ritual, the break. I keep having this vague feeling like something's missing, as I move through the day, some reward I ought to be getting.
But that's it, really. I am completely sold on Zyban/Wellbutrin as the way to go about quitting; it seems to completely short-circuit the craving, and the compulsivity of the behavior pattern. When I feel itchy about wanting to go smoke, I stop and think, "Do I really want a cigarette?" -- and I realize I don't, not really, not at all. This is different from any of my attempts to quit in the past by dint of sheer laborious muscle-straining willpower; this feels effortless.
So I think this round of quitting is going to stick, which is a great relief, and my blood pressure has already started to edge down. Next step is getting back to the gym on a regular basis, which sounds much more appealing now that my lungs are starting to unclog.