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Dec. 1st, 2002 01:33 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
katallisonArgh. Self-absorbed tedious writing blather follows, which is in fact so mortifyingly self-absorbed that I've put it on cutaway.
Ohhh, man. I'm about 90% through the Big Long Horrible Painful Final-Break-Up We're-Through Fight Scene, and god, writing this thing is like being beaten with sticks. Not just because I'm struggling to pull together fifty-seven different emotional/thematic strands from the whole story, but also because it hurts. Anybody who thinks I'm just an evil-hearted wench who gets off on putting characters through the emotional wringer should be here to see me lurch up every ten minutes and pace around the room, sniffling and going "Ouch ouch ouch!" and also "Waaahhh!" Because, man, these poor guys. They are so fucked, and not in the good way. Criminey.
And I can't even tell yet if the damn scene works--Laura S., god bless and keep her, is going to get a huge wad of this to edit later today, when the last 10% is nailed into place. All I can tell is it hurts me.
Ohhh, man. I'm about 90% through the Big Long Horrible Painful Final-Break-Up We're-Through Fight Scene, and god, writing this thing is like being beaten with sticks. Not just because I'm struggling to pull together fifty-seven different emotional/thematic strands from the whole story, but also because it hurts. Anybody who thinks I'm just an evil-hearted wench who gets off on putting characters through the emotional wringer should be here to see me lurch up every ten minutes and pace around the room, sniffling and going "Ouch ouch ouch!" and also "Waaahhh!" Because, man, these poor guys. They are so fucked, and not in the good way. Criminey.
And I can't even tell yet if the damn scene works--Laura S., god bless and keep her, is going to get a huge wad of this to edit later today, when the last 10% is nailed into place. All I can tell is it hurts me.