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[katallison]

Ah, drat. It is raining, not hard but steadily, which grieves me because I'd been looking forward to going downtown for the Pride parade, and all week they kept telling us it was going to be a lovely sunny weekend, but nooooo, they fibbed to us. *shaking fist at weather gods* If I were not such a giant wussie I'd go down in the rain, but oh well. Next year.

This would be a golden opportunity to actually get some writing done, were it not that I seem to have (temporarily, I hope) lost my grip on the fine arcane art of putting together coherent sentences. It's ... a little scary, frankly, kind of like when you go to the gym after some time away and discover you can't lift even *half* of what you could when you were in regular training--how quickly the rot sets in, and all that. One reason I've been so quiet here lately is that even just whamming out an LJ entry (or a comment on someone else's entry, or a reply to a comment, or *anything*) feels insanely difficult, and requires several drafts and long spells of staring into space trying to put my hand on the right word.

Very frustrating, because I have stories going great guns in my head--the AU, and also the DS post-series one in which Vecchio comes back wrong. I have *lots* of ideas, dammit, but when it comes to the actual putting-one-word-after-another, I turn into Old Leadfoot, The Mentally Challenged and Somewhat Aphasic Guernsey.

Part of the problem is that I've lost my fine free clear 6-9 a.m. daily timeslot, which was when I always used to get most of my writing done. For the past month or so, I've been at work by 7:30 every day instead. I'm hoping to change that back again once orientation is over (three weeks and counting...).

And, gaaahh, I read back over this and it's boring boring *boring*! And stoopid! I'll go ahead and hit "update" anyway, because dammit, I'm sick of typing out entries and then deleting them. And then maybe I'll take a deep breath and go lift weights, or something.

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[planetalyx.livejournal.com]

You may feel boring and stoopid, but just reading the phrase "the DS post-series one in which Vecchio comes back wrong" has made my day, and knowing what's up with you always makes me happy.

[katallison.livejournal.com]

Aw, Alyx, you're always so kind to me! Thanks, and it was a pleasure likewise to read about your very pleasant-sounding weekend.

(And yeah, I really do want to do this Vecchio story, and if I ever get it going, I'll have to put out a call to WLU for some help and consultation, because it'd be an honest-to-god horror story--possession, doppelgangers, etc.--and I have no experience with trying to write anything of the kind.)

[planetalyx.livejournal.com]

Possession and dopplegangers and Ray! (Swoon!) Pick me, pick me!

As for kindness, all I can say is I always perk up when I see a Kat post. Sometimes especially if it's got the What Fresh Hell icon.

[flambeau.livejournal.com]

My admiration for anyone who can write at six in the morning is boundless.

Also, you just put together several perfectly coherent sentences. <>::counts:: Seventeen of them. Just stick a "Ray" and "Fraser" here and there and you'll be fine... ;)

[katallison.livejournal.com]

Well, I could certainly stick "Fraser" into any sentence that has to do with being up and at 'em at 6 a.m. *g*

I really wish I could write in the evening, because that's when I have, y'know, *time*, but all I do lately is come home, flump, drink beer, and work my way through various dead TV shows, courtesy of Netflix. Which at least is fun and relaxing and beats the heck out of running staff meetings.

[flambeau.livejournal.com]

You know, it sounds strangely familiar. Except for the beer. :)

[mimesere.livejournal.com]

*giving you a cookie*

*giving you hugs, too*

Personally, you could be writing about the time you read the phone book out loud and I would find it endlessly fascinating 'cause whatever you write is colorful and fun and all thinky, which word should really let you know how I'm doing with the whole writing thing since I think thinky is a perfectly reasonable word to use right now.

I think I shall, um, go off into my corner and watch more of the wee British sex farce that is Coupling.

Also, did you know that there are these teeny little action figures of the Rohirrim on horses? Also of crazy middle aged wizards and the werewolves who love them, but those were incredibly hideous and made my soul weep because I still wanted them. 'Cause kissy face action figures are nice!

Amazingly, they managed to get Thewlis' nose right. It was very amusing.

And honestly? I have no idea why I felt compelled to share that with you, but I did. Also, I have missed you *terribly*.

[katallison.livejournal.com]

Oh, the missing is mutual! *embracing you fervently from afar* And because I am a shlub I never wrote to tell you how vastly I enjoyed the Rohirrim vid you did! I have it on my hard drive, and once or twice a week when I'm having a particularly hard time getting the eyes open and the limbs moving, I'll put on my headphones, open it up, and by the time it's done I am ready to face the new day's ration of tediosity.

And I'm very glad the gafiation was a brief one and you're back, because fandom without Sheila would be a sad and dreary place.

[theodosia.livejournal.com]

Since I suffer from fog-brain quite often, I take refuge in the process of letting a rough draft roll out as fast as I can relax and let it, then spend twice as much time revising. My productivity goes way up when I work this way, because I'm self-censoring way too much otherwise. Of course, I do get occasional days when the first draft comes in damn near perfect -- but those days are blessings, really.

[katallison.livejournal.com]

This is very wise. *nodding* I really do have to learn how to unclench a bit, and let myself relax into sucky-first-draft mindset.

(Hm, maybe that's why the early-morning writing was so successful--the inner critic was still too sleepy to be paying much attention. *g*)

[theodosia.livejournal.com]

Seriously -- the inner critic being too sleepy is a =good= thing for me. In my long years of learning to write (and the jury's still out as to whether I have) I came to the realization that the fluffy Muse who bounds through the literary fields, strewing flowers and singing off-key is much better off if the Inner Editrix stays far far away -- better she comes in later with her push broom and her put-upon sighs and tidies up all the excess 'creativity.'

[thisisbone.livejournal.com]

It is amazing how muscles -- whatever the definition -- atrophy without consistent use! For me, it's conversation. I no longer seem to be able to sustain one for more than about 10 minutes without forgetting the topic, remembering stuff I didn't do, or just lapsing into a fog. Scary stuff, indeed.

BTW, in the best friend meme, YOU are my best friend. Which made my Sunday brighter. :)

[katallison.livejournal.com]

That is so cool! (((hug))) I am truly the most neglectful and undeserving friend on the planet, but you're a source of recurring happiness in my life, and every time I see you in LJ or on lists I brighten up all over.

(And yeah, the slow advance of the fogbanks is an alarming thing. I can usually hang onto the thread of conversation, but I'm developing an unnerving tendency to misplace the word I want, and I stand there like some caricature of Ye Olde Geezer, snapping my fingers and going "That, uh ... that *thing,* y'know, with the ... uh, it sounds like 'coreopsis' but it's not, it's ... oh HELL ...")

[eliade.livejournal.com]

God, I know just how you feel. I am about to try some writing--the last month or so I've felt no inclination, not for fiction, not for livejournal. Fiction is especially sparkless; unlike you, I have no stories going on in my head.

It's good to see a post from you though. Maybe I'll exert myself to do the same later. :>)

So hey. I was thinking I might do a few road trips this summer while I'm on leave. How would you feel about having a visitor for a few days?

[katallison.livejournal.com]

ANNA! tackle-hugging you, with an *ooof* Long time no see, sweetie, and Elijah Wood's countenance has never been lovelier than when it accompanies a post of yours.

I'm really sad to hear about the sparklessness; I hope that's a temporary affliction and that some time away from work, and maybe a roadtrip/change of scene will re-ignite the pilot light.

I would be absolutely delighted to have you here, any time, for any length of time; and I'm also grinning, because I'm actually going to be in Seattle in late July (the 22nd through 27th), and was hoping to see you there then. It'll be a crazy-busy week, though, with a lot of people I want to see and maybe a trip up to Vancouver if I can manage it, so having some quieter time with you here sounds like a wonderful idea. Let me know dates, etc. once you've got something planned.

[eliade.livejournal.com]

Hey you,

I notice I haven't been getting all my LJ notifications by e-mail and thought it might be the same for you, so thought I'd check & see if you got my posted comment the other day about a good time for visiting. Noting that since you probably have some pre-fall prep to do (and I'm not sure when the college fall semester starts), you might want to give me a window of tmie when a visit would be least inconvenient. :>) I'm so keen to see you! ::kiss::