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A thing I like about LJ: getting up at six, powering up the computer, checking the Friends page, and discovering at least twenty updates since I shut down and toppled into bed around ten the previous night. I picture all of you typing away through the night, (anxiously, cheerfully, drunkenly), while I've been sleeping, like the elves in the bakery ads of my childhood.

Yesterday was odd. I spent some time attempting, in an update, to sketch out the progress of the sudden plummet into depression, the swoop back up to good cheer, both equally inexplicable. I do know that one thing that cheered was the sudden whim to go get my hair cut--almost three inches chopped off the bottom--after which I went home and re-colored it. I am especially cheered that the color turned out not at all what I'd expected; it's now a *very* dark brown, almost black, with odd coppery/purpley glints.

My stepmother will be dismayed; she's fond of retailing the received wisdom that women Of A Certain Age should never color their hair too dark, as it makes them look older. To which I say, what the hell, I *am* older, I'm going to have fun with it. And then this makes me remember my old neighbor Vera, who had no truck with any received wisdom about the necessity for restrained decorous behavior on the part of aged females.

When I lived in Santa Cruz, back in the late 70s, S. and I had the good fortune to find a big rambling ramshackle house for rent, near downtown and near the ocean. It had behind it a large paved area, around which were ringed a half-dozen tiny cottages. I imagine that back in the 30s or 40s, the whole complex was built so that the owners of the big house could rent out the cottages to summer vacationers, by the week or for the season. But they'd long since been converted to year-round rentals, and were inhabited by the damndest rag-tag assortment of humanity. Since S. and I were renters just as the cottagers were, we had no formal responsibility for them, and most of them were independent souls, though friendly enough; but then there was Vera.

I never knew exactly how old she was--certainly in her late seventies. She was coy about her age, though. She lived alone, in her tiny cottage that was jammed full of knickknacks and photos and always had the heat turned up to stifling levels and smelled like old shoes and mildew.

She was no recluse; every morning she would rise, attire herself, and sally forth on a series of little strolls around the neighborhood. She was tottery, not just because of age, but because she insisted on wearing spike heels (usually in some garish shade of cracked patent leather; sometimes suede go-go boots, slightly stained). Moving up from the boots, she would wear: brightly-colored stockings (usually snagged and holey); a very short skirt, to show off her legs (still damn good); a flimsy top of some sort, with a lumpy sweater (also usually stained) wrapped around it for warmth; a heavy coat of makeup on her face, always (half-inch swathes of kohl eyeliner, thick mascara, scarlet lipstick that swerved wildly outside the lipline). And on her head she always had the most astonishing wig--teased and pouffed, standing out at least six inches from her skull, almost felted in its density and tangledness. It looked rather like a Madame Pompadour wig, except it was coal-black, and it was usually a bit askew on her head. (She often had a jaunty little hat, too, skewered onto the wig.)

She loved to buttonhole anyone within view, while on these sorties, and talk about her past life as a chorus girl in Hollywood--the parties she'd been to, the boyfriends she'd had. Since she trusted me, she'd take me back into her cottage, and show me mementos--old newspaper clippings, and photos of her swains (smooth-faced young men with their hair sleeked back and snazzy suits).

She'd also press-gang me into helping her with little chores--"Oh, hey, kid [she called everyone "kid"], could you run to 7-11 and pick me up a can of soup?" "Kid, old Vera needs a hand with something, could you come in here for a minute?" I remember I always needed to change her lightbulbs for her; she was terrified of electricity and convinced that changing bulbs could shock a person to death. ("Are you *sure* you're OK there, kid? Be careful!")

She seemed, or acted, terrified of many things in this brave new world of the 70s, which may have simply been the residue of a lifetime of assuming the facade of feminine helplessness. It puzzled me at the time, because certainly she was an immensely gutsy person to live on as she did, alone and frail, with no family or intimates. She was very poor, I think, but always had a new outfit for the change of seasons.

God, I haven't thought of her in a long time, and since that was over twenty years ago, she's certainly dead by now. I wonder where she's buried, and who took charge of burying her. I wonder what became of all her knickknacks and photos. The wig, I'm sure, was just tossed out, but when I look at my almost-black hair in the mirror, I remember it, and do a little fist-pump in defiance of age.

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Date: 2003-03-30 06:48 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] thete1.livejournal.com
Rock *on*. This is... well, yes, it gives me hope for my own plans for the future.

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Date: 2003-03-30 08:12 am (UTC)
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From: [identity profile] beledibabe.livejournal.com
Thanks for sharing Vera's story. She gives me hope that one can meet the vicissitudes of age with panache and a damn-the-torpedoes attitude!

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Date: 2003-03-30 08:55 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] minette.livejournal.com
Vera's the kind of old lady I want to be. And no matter what age you are, dark hair always makes you feel like getting slicked up and going out for a night of fun on the town.

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Date: 2003-03-30 09:11 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] debchan.livejournal.com
Go you! And go Vera, although I must admit I felt this horrible pang of sorrow at the thought of her dying alone and all of her treasures consigned to the dust bin.

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Date: 2003-03-30 10:21 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] dine.livejournal.com
the new hair sounds fabulous - who cares about your stepmother's Wisdom if you're having fun with it?

Vera is inspiring - gives me hope that I can remain independent/eccentric into my old age. I may never have her style when it comes to clothes, but if I can hang on to some spirit it'll be a good thing.

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Date: 2003-03-30 10:23 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] destina.livejournal.com
Go Vera! Your story about her reminded me of a poem with which I'll now proceed to spam your LJ. *g*

Warning
by Jenny Joseph

When I am an old woman I shall wear purple
With a red hat that doesn't go, and doesn't suit me.
And I shall spend my pension on brandy and summer gloves
And satin sandals, and say we've no money for butter.
I shall sit down on the pavement when I'm tired
And gobble up samples in shops and press alarm bells
And run my stick along the public railings
And make up for the sobrietry of my youth.
I shall go out in my slippers in the rain
And pick flowers in other people's gardens
And learn to spit.

You can wear terrible shirts and grow more fat
And eat three pounds of sausages at a go
Or only bread and pickles for a week
And hoard pens and pencils and beermats and things in boxes.

But now we must have clothes that keep us dry
And pay our rent and not swear in the street
And set a good example for the children.
We must have friends to dinner and read the papers.

But maybe I ought to practice a little now?
So people who know me are not too shocked and surprised
When suddenly I am old, and start to wear purple.



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Date: 2003-03-30 07:28 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] caille.livejournal.com
You know that there's an actual "Red Hat Society", don't you? Here's the link ...http://www.redhatsociety.com/

"Welcome to the place where there is fun after fifty (and before) for women of all walks of life. We believe silliness is the comedy relief of life, and, since we are all in it together, we might as well join red-gloved hands and go for the gusto together. Underneath the frivolity, we share a bond of affection, forged by common life experiences and a genuine enthusiasm for wherever life takes us next."

Vera's story is fascinating, and I'd rather be an old lady like her that a permanently house-bound little wren who is afraid of everything...but it's still painfully sad to me. Maybe I should check out this Red Hat Society.

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Date: 2003-03-30 10:41 am (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] luminosity
Your thoughts about hair color reminded me of a weird little moment of clarity I had about this very thing a few years ago.

I was in Chicago, at a restaurant, lunch time. Something seemed vaguely "off." I couldn't figure it out, even though it bothered me the entire time I was there. Finally, when I was leaving the restaurant, it hit me! None of the ladies in there had colored their hair! They were all in midthirties to late forties, and all of them had naturally grey hair. This is anathema down in the South. We start coloring our hair when we're teenagers, as a social interaction with our friends.

I know that I shall be one of those women who dresses garishly, who colors her hair those colors not found in nature, who wears too much make up. I'll blame it on being an old lady, but I know I've anticipated it all of my life. Crone in waiting, that's me.

Besides, older women look right with dark red lips.

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Date: 2003-04-01 10:57 am (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] brynwulf
I'm with you Lum!! As a sister of the south myself, I know the women of my high school class of '75, wherever they are, are manicured (only on Tuesday after the laundry is done), colored and coiffed, and not one can deny they have one pair of gloves stashed in a back drawer somewhere. heehee

I used to be all high and mighty, denying I would ever color my hair...till it started turning grey in a most unladylike fashion. It didn't even have the grace to do it all at once, but just a wirey strand here and there that would never do!!

I love Vera's tale and toast us all as we approach that time of life where we can say any damned thing we please and be able to chalk it up to old age (as opposed to saying any damned thing we please now, and then having to apologize for it). Go Kat with your dark brown, purplish hair. Go out and get a red hat to go with it. You'll be all the rage.

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Date: 2003-03-30 11:35 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] tracy-rowan.livejournal.com
I love the story of Vera. It makes this newly (and bizarrely) red hair of mine seem like a slap in the face of a genteel old age. Though, I have to confess, I always did want to be the Priness Dragomiroff (Murder on the Orient Express) when I grew up.

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