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[katallison]

I've been following the "Ask My Characters a Question" meme, but had felt a little diffident about inviting such questioning, I suppose because it presumes people have that level of interest in my characters. However, shellmidwife said she had a question or two for Fraser, and so I'll toss the door open--if you want to ask any of these people anything, go to town! I warn you, though, that they're not always responsive to the questions I ask them (usually along the lines of "And so where in the hell have you been for the last three months??")

Oh, and re: shell's other question in a different entry--confirm, but truly it's no big deal.

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I am enjoying this so much.

[laurashapiro.livejournal.com]

And I'll play:

I'd like to ask the Fraser of "Roots Rain" why someone ready to leap into danger at every second, like he is, doesn't have the balls to tell Ray how he really feels. (:

And since you insist it's not a big deal, I'll refrain from my impulse of broadcasting this on my own LJ, but you can't escape it here: Happy birthday!

[katallison.livejournal.com]

<aside, a trifle pettishly> For heaven's sake, Ms. Allison, I find it hard to believe that these women really need to know all the details of my private and innermost--oh, all right, very well.

<facing mike, squaring shoulders> Let me, in return, ask you--what purpose would such an act serve? Only the selfish one of indulging my own self-centered feelings. I most sincerely doubt that their revelation would cause anything but discomfort and embarrassment for Ray, and the destruction of our working partnership, which (wholly apart from the personal enjoyment I take in it) has been highly effective in maintaining the law and apprehending miscreants. Its loss would harm others besides ourselves.

And even if, by most unlikely chance, Ray were to return my feelings--well, where would that lead him? Professional obloquy and disgrace, discord with his friends and family, perhaps actual physical hazard; or else a life of deceit and concealment. I would wish neither of those on an enemy, still less on him.

To open my heart to him would not be an act of courage, as you imply, but rather one of cowardice and selfishness. I trust that I have the...well, the "balls," as you put it, to keep a firm grip on the larger scale of priorities, and to realize how low my own egocentric desires rank on that scale.

[laurashapiro.livejournal.com]

::applauding::

Oh, boy, do I love this guy. (: Kat, you make it hurt so good!