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[katallison]

So, 2005 -- lordy. Quite the year. I went back just now to see if I'd posted any foolish optimism last New Year's, which I could then point at and laugh the laugh of bitter irony -- but in fact what I found was this account of a dream which is, looking at the year in retrospect, amazingly apropos, and remains so for 2006. Because my life these days isn't falling into neat annual divisions (not that anyone's does, of course) -- rather, I'm in the middle of what feels like it'll be maybe a three-to-four-year-long sequence of major, foundational life changes. Not only are big pieces of furniture being chucked down to the psychological basement, so to speak, but I may be knocking down some walls and repainting, or, hell, putting the whole place on the market and hitching up the U-Haul.

This is, I should add, a good thing; there's no time like one's early fifties to commence with the kicking out of the jams, because really, if not now, when?

So -- some of the more notable events of 2005, in my own life:

• my stepmother died;


• six weeks later my father died;


• a huge reorganization plan was launched at work, which will (among other things) do away with my job, and drastically diminish my work unit, over the next six months;


• I came to terms with the fact that other people see me as a highly skilled professional with a bright future, who could seriously compete for very high-octane jobs in my field;


• I applied in May, and interviewed in October, for a big exciting high-octane job in City o' my Dreams;


• and then the hire was put on hold, and god knows when any decision will actually be made;


• I spent a really amazing amount of time, despite my best intentions, obsessing over everything that would be involved in relocating to City o' my D. (scanning rental ads, debating the merits of various neighborhoods, getting estimates of moving costs, setting up a desktop widget to show me concurrently the weather both here and there) and indulging in rosy-hued fantasies of the wonderfulness of my New Relocated Life;


• I quit smoking, for good;


• and I wrote nothing all year long.

For better or worse, 2006 should bring some sort of closure to my insanely protracted Where will I be living? and What job will I have? dither. I hope that getting things quieted down on that front will let me refocus some energy in a fannish/writerly direction. But in fact, I think I'm in the process of some kind of subterranean shifting in my relationship with fandom. I'm not gafiating or anything, just recalibrating the balance between fandom and other areas of my life. Part of which will involve some cogitation about this LJ, how I want to use it and what for, so my posting may continue to be sparse for a while. But I'm continuing to read, absolutely, and I continue to cherish the presence of you all in my life. Happy 2006 to everyone!

Comments

[umbo.livejournal.com]

Happy 2006 to you as well, my dear--I cherish your presence in my life as well, very much.

[musesfool.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

Happy 2006 to you, too.

[norah.livejournal.com]

Congratulations on the quitting smoking and best of luck with 2006; I certainly hope you get that job.

My mum says things come in seven-year cycles for her; I can see it, I'm on seven or eight-year cycles myself.

[violetisblue.livejournal.com]

Happy 2006! And may all your momentous life changes be happy and fruitful ones.

[brooklinegirl.livejournal.com]

however often you decide to stick your toe into the waters of LJ, I am always happy to see a post from you. I know this was a sort of frantic year for you, and man, I admire you being able to quit smoking during it. *applauds*

happy 2006, ms. Kat.

[j-bluestocking.livejournal.com]

May your 2006 be momentous only in good ways.

[ardent-muses.livejournal.com]

Wishing you the happiest of new years. :)

[brynwulf]

I'm glad you're still around and although I miss your always-thought-provoking posts, I totally understand recalibration.

Have a great 2006 and get things all tuned up!

[the-shoshanna.livejournal.com]

May 2006 bring resolution, closure, and happiness! And whatever your relationship to fandom, I'll always think of you as a friend; we may have met through TV, but it isn't intrinsic.

[thewildmole.livejournal.com]

I hope your 2006 contains many, many good things for you most assuredly deserve them. You are such an intelligent, incredibly interesting person and one of my biggest writing heroes/influences.

[vagabondage.livejournal.com]

Happy New Year, Kat!

*zen hugs you madly*

I just adore you, and want you to be happy. That's all. MWAH!

[rhi]

{{hugs}} Wishing you the best, and I'm always glad to hear from you. My life seems to go in multi-year cycles, too, which makes everything take longer, but maybe it's more solid at the end for that. Anyway. Happy New Year, Kat.