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[katallison]

I've been trying to type up a grand summative entry about 2007, but you know what? Ta heck with it. Thumbnail sketch: after three years of ineffectual sitting and dithering, 2007 was the year I quit a job I hated, left a university I'd been part of most of my life but with which I'd grown disenchanted, ended a fifteen-year relationship, left a house I'd lived in for seventeen years, divested myself of two-thirds of my worldly belongings, and departed from the city and region that had been my home for half a century, to move halfway across the country and begin a new life.

The factoids themselves are not all that interesting; the emotional states associated with them might be rather more so, but I don't know that I have enough understanding of them yet to write them up. What I do know right now is: I have no regrets for having done any of this, though life just now is a bit more precarious than the ideal. I do have some regrets for how I handled some of the departures and endings, but I have no doubt that making the move was the right thing to do.

And one other thing I do know: 2007 was a testimonial to the fact that action (even if imperfectly executed) trumps sitting and dithering. This is a lesson I've never been able to really get a handle on, being, apparently, deeply and intractably sit-and-dither-prone. But insofar as I have resolutions in mind for this year, they coalesce vaguely around that whole action thing, in many forms and directions. Yeah.

Comments

[shayheyred.livejournal.com]

YES! That's the key to everything: action diminishes fear. Or, as a shrink told me once, it's better to be anxious about what you're doing than depressed that you aren't doing anything.

Brava to you for your absolute, well, bravery, in 2007. Here's to an excellent outcome in 2008 for all your chutzpah.

[katallison.livejournal.com]

I just don't know why this lesson is so frickin' hard for me to retain. (*sigh*) But anyway, thanks so much, Shay, for your encouragement! I'll really miss seeing you in '08, if I'm not able to get out east for Con.txt (which looks very unlikely at this point), but -- '09 for sure! And best wishes to you for a wonderful year!