HST's suicide leaves me feeling gut-punched. Oddly, not really *surprised*--I never saw him expiring peacefully in bed, or anything. But shocked, and kind of old and emptied out, and deeply sad.
I know. It's like the rebels are slipping away from me, like I'm losing touch with something wild and free and brave. Like the world has become too toxic for my heroes, and something important, damn it is slipping through our fingers and we need to wake up, we need to do something about it.
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Date: 2005-02-21 08:15 pm (UTC)Just damn and ouch.